Non Stop Babbling

Saturday, June 03, 2006

i seem to have so many things to say.. feeling lotsa emotions now.. haa.. but shall not kill everyone with all e details.. i will go kill dear.. bomb her with 10 mails.. haa..

ok.. heres my day.. after yest long night.. n i still can study till 2..
tutorial at 9.. was my not bad looking tutor lesson.. but i was stoning all e way.. normally i will give all e ans.. saying ridiculous stuff.. but today i was like in a daze.. den he buay tahan den ask me.. "debbie r u ok? r u sick? u haven talk since e start of lesson.. wad happen to u?" ahahah den i just laugh a bit den cont stoning.. 30 min later.. i was still in silence.. den he cannot take it.. "debbie.. i think theres seriously something wrong with u, r u having sorethroat? y aint u talking?"hahaha.. den he give me e sissy feeling kind.. den he ask those qns.. haha.. laughing inside cux no energy to lol.. den he just give up asking me by saying "debbie is not a morning person i realise" hahaha.. how interesting..

sch ended at 1.. ate with tiff n ah da till 2.. den go library study alone till 4.. tiff con me say she studying tts y i go.. in e end?!?!b4 tt i still went take something den park bike at home den go sch again man.. haa.. nvm.. forgiven.. studying alone is good.. left at 4 go take my new specs. feeling giddy wearing it man.. makes my world spin non stop.. den at 5 went hospital visit my grandma.. her rib got a crack or something.. spent some time with her till 6.. cux need to leave for church.. bout 6 like tt she ask me can stay a little longer to pei her.. help her with her dinner n stuff.. my heart sank.. den i watch her eat her dinner.. help her clear up.. she was telling me how bored she was.. sitting there whole day.. n if no one visit den it will be ultimate boredness kind.. den she talking to me bout my future n stuff.. sigh..left at 615.. when bid farewell tt time she was like trying to grab my hand as i was walking out.. like so bu she de kinda feeling.. but i really bu she de her.. my eyes were like watery when i walking to e lift.. my heart hurts when i see her in pain, suffering, alone.. hai.. next week she discharge.. thinking of gg over but exams.. maybe i go there study den can help her when she needs to bathe, go toilet, eat,sleep.. but hai.. i where got time..

went for emerge conference.. boy oh boy.. its like awesome n fantastic marvellous n fantabulous.. dunno how to say.. but was just splendid.. guess who e church invite? kelly poon, jun yang n taufik can?!?! me n my leader were like "r we in church??" there was some embarrasement esp for kelly.. haha.. purpose of asking them come i also dunno.. but cux its youth conference.. den got them here to sing n share how they chase their dream.. e pple were like gg crazy la.. screaming n yelling.. hahah.. den got this miss taiwan(1999) hu came also.. now an actress.. CEO of a dunno wad company.. some apparel stuff.. branches all over china n taiwan.. den her bf singer.. den when she say e name i tot it will be some unknown.. den she say LIU GEN HONG!! everybody were like woah!! must be woahing at his muscles.. hahaa.. not tt he is v well known but not bad le lei.. den he goin to sing for the taiwan emerge conference at taiwan.. jay chou will be there too to sing.. everybody literally went crazy when jay chou name was heard..

ok e good thing is not on e superstars.. but on e service.. it was really good.. singing songs tt time i just kept crying.. i really poured out everything to God.. my studies(tt i haven started), vball n my heart.. really just pour out.. was worried for my studies but now feel very relax le.. finish studying my mon paper.. haha but e rest gona die but better den nothing.. n volleyball.. seem so fine.. but aint fine for me.. try being hu i am in e team.. sometimes feel kinda silly y i go do such stuff.. but if i don hu will..really.. nobody ever bothers.. it became so much of a natural thing to some.. like wad e heck..
last night was feeling super terrible.. just felt tt nobody knows nobody sees nobody cares.. nobody knows wad is e scene like behind e front side..(eve.. i really pei fu u to be able to handle all e stuff last time.. with a great smile somemore! haa.. thanks dude.. now i know its hard.. muacks)
but time n time again i got hurt.. things tt were said, actions tt were done.. tell no one here cux i felt it wasnt necessary.. but sometimes when things r stored too long u will just burst.. ok.. tts wad i m doin now..
always waiting for time to close up e wound.. it works somehow sometimes.. e wound is closed but it aint clean.. when it opens up again, it will be worst den e previous time.. this is a rountine i feel each time.. like wad e heck again.. i seriously don deserve all these.. as in seriously.. but it all sums up to a word.. SERVANTHOOD.. visions r amazing things, vision from God is no joke.. i did wad i was suppose to do.. wad i was asked to do.. i did all these so tt at e end of my life journey i can ans to God what i've done for the pple here.. at least something worth looking at..

after e conference i really feel much much better.. cux i know.. pple dunno but God knows every single feeling of mine.. Man fails u but God doesnt.. like woohoo.. hopefully tt keeps me gg on.. wanna go back tml n sun for more of it..

right now i can say.. i really love the team.. don care they love me not.. don care they appreciate not.. but i will do my best to serve e pple there.. every single one.. anything great happen to this team don thank me man.. thank God.. cux He planned all these..

most importantly don hurt me again.. if not e routine will begin n e fire will just cease someday..

wooo.. another one in a billion spiritual post from me.. haa.. seldom have so much emos man.. but i just need you to know this.. =P

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