Non Stop Babbling

Saturday, January 21, 2006

i'm like blogging at 345am.. came home half an hour ago.. after game.. after dinner.. n after my supper.. n after my long talk with hoho.. i dunno how long will this post last but i just dont wanna sleep cuz i don wanna wake up.. cuz i know when i wake up everything is over.. i really wish somebody can tell me now tt wad just happen was an illusion.. its all fake.. nothing is real..

"WE'VE LOST"' WE ARE OUT!!!!!!!!!!! my goodness.. i really cannot believe it.. we were like pinning so much hope to enter into finals n now wad we got??? out of top 4.. the game was like totally disgusting.. we lost to NTU.. they played like fantastically well.. nv see them play so well before.. n NP can actually take 2 sets from NUS.. wad the crap.. so obvious they did tt on purpose.. i mean its like hu cant see.. i dont wan it to seem tt we r sore losers tts y we make such accusations but come on.. so many pple could see.. 1st set don wan put the 2 players.. when losing also don wanna sub.. den even they play setter din keep setting to the huang pai like wad she did when they played with us when EVERY ball goes to the 2 huang pai.. so now NP is in n we r out when we won them 3-0.. just cant stand this fact man.. we were suppose to be standing equal with NP but cuz of the 1 set we lost to NYP all thanks to ahem n now we ended up crying.. ended up broken.. ended up lost in lala land..

there might be a miracle to get in if tt IVP rule is real.. u guys know wad i meant.. but i think tt really takes a miracle.. if its God's plan for us to lose.. n it was his plan for us to hear of such a 'rule' so who knows.. this could be just a test of our faith.. so pple.. if u ever read this before the verdict is out.. pray hard.. real hard..

i dunno wad m i feeling now.. sad?? i think its too ultimate tt i cant feel it at all.. angry?? i don think so.. nothing to be angry about.. maybe just plain disappointed n 'yi han' this team just ended everything like tt.. totally not worth it.. totally out of my expectation.. i mean its like we were so close.. maybe not on the inside but at least the outside.. u guys made me feel so protected.. i just feel so happy playing in this team.. i mean its like i dunno wad to say.. too fast too fast.. ended too fast..

there's alot reason y we lose this game.. i knew the team actually had some problems with one another.. i hesitated whether to voice out anot.. sharon did told me to settle it quick before today's game..cuz she say it could be serious.. but in e end i chose not to.. maybe if i did we wouldnt have lost.. i dunno.. but on top of tt there's really more.. pple always say its the process tt matters n not the outcome.. but when we play until this stage we can only think of the outcome cuz nobody bothers bout the process.. on the whole the team did train rather hard when IVP was drawing.. but wad bout before tt?? totally off.. it was so hard on eve.. but who saw it? who bothers? who did something bout it?

i just feel tt i really lost something so impt overnight.. this team is nv gonna be back again.. the pple who are leaving are my dearest.. how am i goin to let go n tell myself to be strong?? n worst of all sharon is like leaving in 24 days.. i really cannot accept tt.. from the start when i know she's leaving on feb 13 was the start of my sadness.. at times i really cannot ctrl my emotions..can go moody or crazy suddenly.. can just sit down stare into space n when i realise she is leaving i will just tear.. i dunno who to tell.. if i tell her she will be even more sad.. but i know i can show no one this cuz IVP is here.. i cant bring this into court cuz i know i will let the team down.. struggling so hard inside me n today which is now its time for me to let our cuz vball, ivp is over but i just cant.. its all stuck inside me.. STUCKED!!

losing e most impt person in my life just gonna be i dunno wad.. worst still when the next most impt grp of pple r also leaving me.. so who am i?? a loner?? a nobody!!

thanksgiving session:

eve: i love u so much.. i really do.. i know how much u've done for the team i know wad u've done.. i saw everything u did n am truly touch by how u can do everything n not expecting anything n i mean anything in return.. u just wanted us to be happy.. u always smile no matter wad happen even thou pple may be letting u down. u nv get angry.. u're just so patience..u're really an amazing person.. so pretty n with all e weird talents u can do with ur bones n joints..
u always make me smile n laugh so much.. always listening to my sorrows n when we talk we really talk so deep n so serious.. i mean man.. i can do it with no one like so easily.. u're really a great captain protecting all of us.. helping us do so many things.. a big thank you to u.. love u lots lots.. really really miss u when u're gone.. i really do.. hugs hugs..

yushan: i'm so glad tt u were able to come back just in time to play with the team.. at tt time when i know tt u cannot play anymore i was like so sad.. cuz i just feel tt a pillar had been remove.. ur great leadership was like awesome.. u really make a good captain.. but am so glad tt at least we get to play this ivp together.. i know ur injury had made u feel very burden but i can really see u put in ur best effort for this team.. at all cost even ur leg u played for this team.. thanks for standing by the team always n supporting each n every one of us.. today i saw u play.. the way u shout the way u 'ping' was like so nice.. at least i know there is someone so 'ping' at tt critical period.. even thou we only know each other not long but am really thankful we can play together n enjoy so much.. gonna miss ya lots when u're gone.. love u lots lots.. muacks..

germy: my goodness.. my dear germy.. vball is over now.. can u believe it?? i cant.. we know each other for like less den a yr.. n we can be like so close.. am i blind or something?? haha just kidding.. thou u gave me alot problems when come to vball u know wad i mean.. always doing things tt u know will irritate me.. but still u're so dear to me no matter how much u irritate me.. u're always the one who can make me laugh when i'm moody.. congrats u're e first.. nobody had even done tt b4.. last sem we were like meeting EVERYDAY doin nothing but just meet until so many pple think we're les.. haha.. but i really enjoy ur accompany.. thou u always bully me but i give u face since u treat me so nice.. i decided to let go all the bad side of u.. so many pple cant understand wad r u thinking n doing.. seriously neither can i up till now but i just make do with it.. cuz u're just germy.. my one n only germy.. opps now i got to share it with xiao ming.. see la.. haa.. now tt vball is over.. time is not on our side anymore.. esp now u got xiao ming.. n all ur projects.. ur sch work n stuff.. u sure gonna be very busy until u graduate.. i'm not even sure can our friendship last tt long.. haa.. but nvm.. we still can meet everyday right.. even for just tt short while it holds some value.. really gonna miss ya so so so much.. even thou u wanna dump me on feb 13 but i'm still gonna love u.. so yeah really love ya lots n thanks for all the things u done for me.. dunno wad but yah.. big hugs n kisses to u.. muacks muacks..

hoho: my well kept grouchy monster.. ur grouch-no-more is just a myth.. ur own myth.. hahaha.. after talking to u for hours just now wad can i say to u now?? haha.. well.. just wanna say a big thank you for always supporting me in court.. we always say u n i make the big plays.. cuz we know tt glory doesnt comes to us.. but we create the play.. haa.. but feel good doing just tt.. really gonna miss all the times when u tell me in court asking me to receive high so u can set n they can spike.. the way we motivate each other is like wooo.. awesome.. always telling me i'm the best libero.. making me feel confident of myself.. haa.. thanks =) thou u r so grouchy but amazingly i share alot of my problems with u.. haha.. cuz i know u do give me good advice at times.. hahahaha.. n for sure u're be by my side always.. even thou we know each other for so long but last yr was den i really talk to u n know u.. it may be short but its surely unforgettable.. all the times we had in trg in court.. everything.. it may seem to be over now but somehow i know our friendship will not be over.. u n i gonna be so busy in our future but i really hope we still can be there for each other.. for anything.. hehe.. i know now u don wanna sleep cuz u're feeling the same as me.. once we wake up we know tt everything is gonna be over.. haha.. but i think u shld cuz u r not some ultra woman.. haha.. n pls accept the fact tt we have one more game which is the 5th n 6th playoff.. n we got to lose tt for future sake.. hahahah.. anyway really thank you so much for being there for me always no matter how badly i play.. really love u lots lots no matter how grouchy u r.. hahaha.. we will play together some day.. we will.. will really miss u lots.. big hugs n kisses to u.. muack muack..

jelly: gonna miss the small little you.. moving in the court.. haa.. so cute.. anw thanks for wad u've done for the team.. nv seeing u miss a trg before in my memory.. even thou u may receive some setbacks before ivp but i can see tt u strongly pull thru it.. i may not know wad u really feel but at the very least u still din gave up n fight on.. tt was really encouraging.. gonna miss the time playing with u n all ur nonsence.. haahaha.. miss me too k.. love ya.. muack muack

seet: the most emotional one.. hahaha.. u really make a good game captain telling us wad to do n making us feel motivated in the game.. ur blur ness outside the court is just so funny.. n yet u can be so smart n clear in the court.. i still haven had the chance to know u well but nvm.. we still another year to pei yang gan qing.. anw thanks alot for wad u have done n put into this team.. all the analysis n trgs.. trust me.. nv once u demoralise us.. so ur effort for everything had nv been wasted.. n tt ankle of urs.. i know it hurts alot in game.. u just make me feel the hurt for u also when i see u play but yet for the team u fight on.. was really a strong determination on ur side.. really well done.. thanks for all tt u have done for the team.. lets look forward to our next team together n i mean together k.. don leave me alone n die with the rest.. hahah... love ya lots.. muacks.. hugs.. =)

xiang ting: e most crazy one.. doin all sorts of weird things.. hahaha.. but really the one who fight all the way.. nv ever once gave up.. u just whack n when u really whack into opponent court it really makes the team so high esp with ur tt loud yeah of urs.. hahhaha.. n ur blocking.. its like placing a great wall of china to block.. always so safe.. feel so happy covering behind u.. haa.. u done well for alot of games.. when nobody could play u were e one fighting so hard for the team.. u're just so great.. such an interesting teamate i got.. haha.. look forward for the next one alright.. we gonna fight even more.. *ROAR* hahaha.. love ya.. muack muack..

hui yee: thanks for sharing with me like wad u feel n stuff.. it may not be impt to u but it was to me cuz at least i know how u feel n stuff.. hehhe.. i know u've played ur best for this ivp.. so continue more k.. u still got 2 more yrs with me.. i'm gonna spice u up like siao.. haha.. i will drive u crazy too.. u know it.. so better beware.. look forward for our next yr n next next yr.. hahaha.. glad to have u arnd with me until i graduate.. love ya lots.. muack muack..

ying, andrea, kris: just wanna say a big thank you to u guys.. i know u all had been cheering n shouting n screaming n worrying so much for us outside.. u all feel more gan jiong den any of us i bet.. but haha yeah thanks alot.. without u guys the team can never be whole.. n u all gonna be stuck with me for the next 2 yrs.. hahah.. bet u all r feeling very happy right.. wahhaha.. cuz i am.. lets look forward for e next 2 yrs alright.. love u guys lots n thanks for all tt u all had done.. love u guys.. muacks muacks..

theres alot more i can say but i cant think now cuz its like 535am in e morning.. i've blog for 2hrs.. think i'm mad.. but hey all came from the bottom of my heart k.. TP womens' team 2006 is e best ever.. nv will i have such a nice team ever again.. it just feels great to be the youngest la.. haha cuz u know everybody will be there for u n protect u.. bet none of u understand wad i feel.. hahaha.. thanks alot guys for all tt u all have done for this team to make everything whole..
gonna miss u all soooooooooooooooooooooooo much.. dont dare to think of it now but yeah tt's wad i'm feeling it now thou.. hee..

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